1) bird of paradise
2) twisted sister
3) dragon’s tail
4) anastasia split
5) Porsche’s split thing
I feel lousy.
People who remind me of my gym past are joining pole and while I don’t mind, it makes me feel sad and inadequate all over again. I’m left wondering why I can’t be amazing at what I love so badly.
"I could never be anorexic, I love food too much." No. Just no. I love food too, I have never once in my life disliked tasty food. I have an unhealthy relationship with food that makes me dislike the process of eating and my feelings after I eat. But I fucking love food, and I’m changing my relationship with food so I can love eating too. I just feel like people should understand this.
Always torn between having arms like mine now, with a muscular back, versus skinny model stick arms like in the past… I feel a little too real when I see all those out of focus, dreamy photos of sylph girls.