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2013

Pole
1) first competition ever (even though it was only the intra-studio competition), and performing solo in front of hundreds of people at Avalon!
2) aerial deadlift achieved (special because I used to say I’d quit pole when I could do that)
3) more pole friends.. Hopefully someday they’ll be more than pole friends!
4) IPC 2013! Amazing and inspiring.
5) workshops with Marion Crampe and Marlo Fisken. Both wonderful teachers and pole stars, hope I’ll get to meet them someday again.

Non pole
1) first full marathon ever in 5h8min (could have pushed self more instead of walking and appreciating the scenery, but it was a good and fun experience).

M**
1) learning not to make m** the only thing my life revolves around, and to balance future career and responsibilities with a more well balanced life. I hope at the end of the day, results will encourage me that this is indeed possible, or I will have to go back to the days of mental and physically punishing myself by doing nothing but m**.

I feel lousy.

People who remind me of my gym past are joining pole and while I don’t mind, it makes me feel sad and inadequate all over again. I’m left wondering why I can’t be amazing at what I love so badly.

This is what happened in love. One of you cried a lot and then both of you grew sarcastic.

—Lorrie Moore, Like Life (via unbearablysharp)

I don’t want to waste any more time living a small, thin life. I keep a list of things that turned out to taste better than skinny feels: things such as earning a living, the thrill of rewarding work, fun and having the energy to dance all night. I look at that list whenever I feel powerless. Real life is full of all sorts of flavours, some bitter, some sweet. And I want to taste them all.